I found this Face-Scale this morning, on the wall of bed-head of my mother in the hospital.
I had a phone call from the nurse yesterday that they were putting the Durotep Patch(Drug Patch) on her to ease pains.
At the last stage of the terminal cancer, my mother can take no more foods nor drinks for a few days.
Her eyes are almost always closed and there is almost no way to communicate with her. Her face only shows sometimes the pain of the 4-stage of the Face-scale.

Since July 6th,when she was firstly taken to the hospital, I deserve Full-time award by visiting my mother in the hospital twice a day, morning and evening.
Still so,I cannot help regretting that if I have done for her as much as possible. She is dying very soon.

今朝、母の病室の壁にこれが掛かっていた。一見、楽しそうなイラストに見えるが、これは痛みの指標だ。
母は数日前からほぼ半覚半睡で、会話もほぼ成り立たなくなっているので、寝た母の顔から、時々ステージ４くらいの痛みが予想される。昨日から麻薬パッチを貼ってもらったので、おお方穏やかな寝顔で寝ている。
２日前から、ほぼ食べ物はおろか飲み物も受け付けなくなり、母の命の灯火は、いよいよカウントダウンの段階になった。
7/6に最初に救急入院してから、１日２回の病室訪問（朝夕）を欠かしてないけど、悔いを残したくないと思っている。